I know I’ve been missing in action. Don’t worry, I didn’t run off with a man or anything like that. To be completely honest, it’s been all fries and no men for me lately. In fact, it’s been more fries than usual. For the past few weeks, I consumed fries like there was no tomorrow.
But tomorrow did come. I woke up to a new day, and I was sure it was going to be a beautiful day.
I hummed a tune while putting on my favorite pair of jeans. And then “it” happened.
I wasn’t able to pull my jeans up all the way! I couldn’t fit into my jeans. Or rather, my jeans couldn’t fit into me!
I felt like I’ve been punched in the stomach. As I stared at my reflection in the mirror, I asked myself: How could this happen? I have always been able to eat as much fries as I wanted. They would just kind of ‘disappear’. I never expected that they would ‘appear’ one day – especially on ME!
In a similar way, I think there are times when our feelings catch us off-guard. We tell ourselves, oh I don’t have feelings for him, I don’t miss him, I don’t want him, and so on and so forth.
But then one day you wake up and Boom! They just emerge. All these feelings you thought you didn’t have. And now that they’re laid out in front of you, you can’t pretend they don’t exist. As much as you can’t pretend to wear a pair of jeans that don’t fit.
So now that you’re walking around with some extra pounds and feelings, what can you do?
Well, for me, I decided to shed off the extra pounds. For practical reasons, really. I wasn’t gonna go and buy a new pair of jeans!
As for the feelings, I don’t know what to do with them yet. I’m toying with the idea that maybe I should try and embrace them.
What would you do?