If you love fries the way I do, you’ll understand that when looking through a menu and choosing what to order, there is a 98.2 percent chance that I would choose the meal that comes with fries. Never mind if the main dish doesn’t sound very appealing – if it comes with fries, I’ll take it!

This time was no different – I looked through the menu and ordered something that came with fries.

But when my order arrived, I was absolutely horrified to see that there were no fries! Not a single one. I demanded for my fries, but the waiter informed me they had changed the menu and that meal no longer comes with fries.

I was disappointed because I was really looking forward to the fries. In fact, I was more excited about the fries than I was about the rest of the meal.

Yet here I was, stuck having a meal without fries.

It’s not a pleasant feeling, and I went through the same feeling again recently with my so-called casual arrangement.

‘But didn’t you say you wanted casual?’, my friends asked when I complained about how the whole thing was.. ermm.. ‘too casual’.

I couldn’t answer that question. Sure, when that really cute guy with a really nice body told me he wasn’t looking for something serious – my response to him was “Cool! Neither am I”. And I meant it at the time. I actually thought that’s what I wanted – a non-serious arrangement with a really hot guy.

But as it turns out, when I finally got what I ordered, I realized it wasn’t what I wanted at all. All I really wanted was fries!

So why didn’t I just order fries in the first place?

I guess I was embarrassed.

I was embarrassed to admit that I wanted fries as a main meal.

And, let’s be honest here: I was embarrassed to be that girl who wants a relationship instead of a casual arrangement.